Wednesday, July 20, 2016

Be Still

Not sleeping well these past weeks, getting up from bed several times during the night, a few hours ago I had a God Experience as I was repeating this scenario. (Tossing and turning in bed might be an analogy, although not quite hitting the mark. Movement and flitting of the mind seems more accurate. The kind of subconscious upheaval and mental jousting that keeps one from returning to sleep.)

Being as quiet as possible, hoping Gene would not detect that I had left the bed, I felt my way into the bathroom and closed the door, then turned on the bath light.  I was wondering what medicine I should take: Meloxicam?  No, took one of those at 7:30 PM, so could not take another dose yet. Certainly, an oxicodone pill was not the answer as there was definitely no pain approximating that medicine intake. Aspirin?: another no. By this time, I was nearing my side of the sinks where some medicines were placed the night before. My mind began praying for guidance as to what I should do to aid in this restlessness.

Instantaneously and without question, the Holy Spirit said to me "BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD."

That was the answer to the question of which medicine to take.  I needed only a reminder that God is in control, that I just needed to return to bed for sleep, I was being watched over.  

Within minutes after returning to bed, I slept again for at least two hours.  All that was needed was His presence.  He had, after all, been there all the time. Only I required that reminder, dumb, slow human that I am.  God is good to his simple sheep.
Psalm 23:1-4 The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Yesterday, a St. Mary's Hospital scheduler made appointments for me with both medical oncology and radiology, although the biopsy report has not been yet been relayed to me.


  1. You are ever in my prayers.
    I am trying to bring back our weekly Contemplative service. What's stopping me? Shame that my recent back injury means I cannot rearrange the chairs. I must sit with this and learn to reach out for help. That and yoga will help me with this new pain that is part of my reality.

  2. Hello dear-you're in my prayers...

  3. Praying for you dear Nancy, "be still" is great advice. Hugs.

  4. He is very near. Praying for you, Nancy.

  5. Lifting you and your family up in prayer. I am sorry for what you are going through but I thank you for posting these faith filled posts, they are beautiful and gentle reminders for all of us as well. BTW, I loved that painting of the Birch Trees that you gifted. It was gorgeous.

  6. It's no wonder you can't sleep. Continued healing thoughts coming your

  7. What a good story - a lesson for many of us.

  8. Nancy, we are all dumb, slow humans; sometimes I feel like an animal, standing in the field. All I can do is say as my mantra, "God, You have a plan; I choose to trust You."

  9. That is so beautiful, God's words for you just then. ♡ praying still


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